Why I’m opting out of the 2019 YEG Artwalk

Events, illustrations, Redbubble Shop, Uncategorized

This would have been my third consecutive year participating in the YEG Artwalk as an artist. It is a terrifying, interesting and rewarding experience to display your work to the world…in PEOPLE!

Like many anti-social/socially awkward creatives, myself included, events like this can be very daunting and difficult. You are literally putting your creative expression out there for people to see, judge, purchase, compliment or straight up trash talk – except this time it’s in person and not so easy to block trolls – but hey, what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger…right? I see situations like this worth all the horrible anxiety ridden feelings it gives me, only because I know it’s all apart of my personal growth and learning experiences…at least thats what I keep telling myself in hopes those feelings will eventually disappear.

Now don’t get me wrong, these jittery feelings of anxiety and judgment are not the reason I have chosen to opt our of the 2019 YEG Artwalk.

A lot has happened over the last little while, if you follow my instagram you would have seen a glimpse of all the things; though lately, I’ve been a little MIA there as well – life’s been busy, but in a good way.

I guess the short of it is *takes deep breath*:

  1. I started a new, full time job in communications (late January of 2018) that allowed me to submit for the IABC Capital Awards two years in a row – am now two for two on awards of excellence, which is something I never considered in my professional career, so its pree neat!
  2. With this new position is a new career path. I do get to design a fair amount still, so thats happy, there is/was lot of new things to learn. With that said, I am grateful this job gives me the opportunity to take courses for professional development. So far, I have completed a Communications 101 course and recently started a course on Interpersonal Communications.
  3. I rebranded my business, which required some updating on various online platforms, etc.
  4. Re-opened/trying to managing my Etsy and Redbubble shops.
  5. Still working freelance on the side, which fills up the time slots.
  6. Bought a house last summer and moved in early in the fall, and did minor “renos” (painting mostly), but are still not fully set up, and there is other work to be done. Not to mention, we still have boxes upon boxes to go through/organize in the garage, as well as in the basement 😛
  7. Can’t forget about all the other, personal things (growing families, weddings, friends visiting, etc.) happening, and all the crazy things life offers in general.
  8. I decided to not burn myself out this year – though it may not seem that way, but I am planning on taking 2 weeks off work in the summer, so theres that! *cough – i’m a workaholic – cough* – baby steps 🙂

With all this going on, it feels like there is not enough time to experiment with painting and other creative outlets. Not being able to create, let alone prepare for Artwalk, has left me a bit tired and unmotivated. Plus, it wouldn’t be fair to potential patrons (or myself) to try and slap a booth together – I aint about that half-assery!

For now I shall push on, re-evaluate how/if I will be able to continue to do all things and prioritize what is important to me and where to invest my time…once the summer is over…or once we have our house in order…whatever comes first, that’s when I’ll do the thing – I swear!

So there you have it, I am officially opting out of the yeg artwalk this year – life is just too busy at the moment. That said, ideas have been marinating in my brain meat for a while now, and I am excited to create a “plan of attack” for next year! *is determined*

Thanks for reading 🙂

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Random Brain Dump: I have to write an essay

Random Brain Dump, Uncategorized

I have to write an essay, I am sooooooooo not feeling it right now. Maybe if I type more about how I am not feeling it I will be able to continue to write down some essay things; who knows, maybe I wont.

Do you ever struggle with writing things? If you do, you are not alone because I do, I struggle with it alllll the time. Organizing words in my brain to try to get them unjumbled onto paper is just blerg…I think my brain missed an update somewhere, a glitch that cannot be fixed without some maintenance and IT wizardry. If only it were that simple, to download a newer, faster version of thinking – instead there is a lot more involved than just a download. We are the programmers of our brains, capable of upgrading our own software through practice, patience and discipline. Sometimes the process is much more time-consuming, others it is like we were pre-programmed to know what/how to do the things. The quest of learing all the things will never end, there is a plethora of knowledge around, just waiting to be “downloaded into the mainframe”.

I am hoping this random stream of consciousness and writing will assist me in getting my essay started…well its kind of started but needs to be organized and more questions to be answered, questions I do not remember the answers to; my brain needs a new memory card. My memory keeps overwriting itself, making searching for information in the dusty files in my brain very difficult.

Sometimes just emptying the random jammerings of my brain can help – like doing mind maps to dump all the info out of the brain to then be organized.

I don’t know…

What do you do to get back on track with writing?

 

 

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